The power of a factory reset

Yesterday was a horrible day, everything felt like it had fallen into piles of tiny pieces. It took a long time to calm myself. When something distressing happens I can often hold it for some time, running it over and over on repeat, the painful feelings conducting my behaviors, like an errant orchestra. In a …

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Photos from a psychiatric hospital

I've spent the last 3 weeks in an acute psychiatric hospital, I don't feel like writing about the last few months at the moment, but thought I'd post my photos from my time there. I didn't ask for my camera until the last week of being there and taking photos helped me to distract my …

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Parenting and me, part 1 – the early years as a parent on the spectrum

I became a parent to a beautiful daughter at the age of 20. In the grand scheme of things these days this isn't that 'young' an age to first become a parent. To me it was though, emotionally immature and struggling in life I hadn't moved much forwards from the mental age of 16. I've …

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Finding shelter from the storm, emotional dis-regulation and me

Emotional dis-regulation, it's hardly a snazzy blog title is it? I didn't really know what it was until it was described to me last year. I recognised that at times I get overwhelmed, but never had a name for it. Often I respond to feelings without really knowing what is going on, I find it …

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