Conversation in the Outdoors

I've been doing a lot of reflecting this month on what has happened in the past year and what can help me going forwards. I will begin by starting at the end of this thought process and will work backwards. Last weekend I had something I really needed to talk about and work through with …

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Assault of the senses

It was a difficult weekend. I was left alone at home after 6 weeks under constant supervision in hospital. My mood was already low and thoughts dark. I kept going back to my distraction plan to try to keep things at bay. I'd taken some medication and had reached the limit of what I could …

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The power of a factory reset

Yesterday was a horrible day, everything felt like it had fallen into piles of tiny pieces. It took a long time to calm myself. When something distressing happens I can often hold it for some time, running it over and over on repeat, the painful feelings conducting my behaviors, like an errant orchestra. In a …

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Photos from a psychiatric hospital

I've spent the last 3 weeks in an acute psychiatric hospital, I don't feel like writing about the last few months at the moment, but thought I'd post my photos from my time there. I didn't ask for my camera until the last week of being there and taking photos helped me to distract my …

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Parenting and me, part 1 – the early years as a parent on the spectrum

I became a parent to a beautiful daughter at the age of 20. In the grand scheme of things these days this isn't that 'young' an age to first become a parent. To me it was though, emotionally immature and struggling in life I hadn't moved much forwards from the mental age of 16. I've …

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